fishy

there's always sth fishy in everyone's life. this mask or facade whatever u call it.. its so weird how everyone tries to hide tt fishy part but always ends up showing abit of the tail and giving abit of themselves away. so anw i adopted this new pet fish which is above my tag board. i think im suffering from sth.. sth tt is pretty mental. tts why im starting to go bonkers. like keeping a virtual pet on my blog.. and naming a fish - fishy.. like how much worse can it get?haha! this is ultra hilarious.. well, but a real mad person wont call herself mad. so i dont think im mad. im jus super exhausted.

exhausted from work, from relationships, from school. jus drain all the blood outta me alright.. u know u do it best.

i feel like grumbling. why is J is jus like? why cant we have sweeter moments? why cant he date me out? its his holidays and yet he still cant bother to date me out. cant give me assured dates and jus maks my schedule all hay-wire. i wish he cld jus understand me better. understand how i like things done. be there for me.. be a partner, be my lover, be my companion.. whats the use of grumbling anw? people never change. me? i too am, human.